Hid's Blog

Moved!

2009-05-30T19:24:00.002+08:00

Moved to WordPress!
but this blog will still be up, inactive.

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darling dont lie to me, dont lie

2009-05-28T16:07:00.002+08:00

I am huge disappointed and couldnt accept the reality.
Maybe its just not our night.
Defence was really shoddy and match-winners cant make it happen.
other than that, congrats to barca.

she said, what? and i told her that i didnt know

2009-05-23T23:17:00.009+08:00

MTV Shows

sharing the good noooseeeee.
blink 182 is back people!!!
after splitting in like feb 2005?, they finally made up to reunite again and officially announced it during the recent grammy awards as shown in the vid above.

oh! and hereeeeees their debut after reunion on tonight show with jay leno, 18 may.

and and! they're working on a new album! out this coming summer! :))

this is the sound that sparks the fire

2009-05-21T19:07:00.002+08:00

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im sorry. im just angry.

he's got two left feet and he bites my move

2009-05-19T22:39:00.004+08:00

I saw an NSman's nametag earlier today and guess whats his name?

Lim Gaynes.

LOL!

Gaynes? I wonder what were his parent thinking when giving him that name.

Anyway, he looks like a total dork, and much skinnier than the typical skinny geeks you saw on the street BUT! he has three stripes on his epaulettes.
THAT! is a captain rank, motherfucka! holycrappppp.

there is a fine line between betrayal and your friends

2009-05-10T19:18:00.005+08:00

I wish i was there,
bruised and in despair
again you're my friend.
As you're moving faster faster,
slower through your veins,
and again.
Stumble, trip and fall down
over all the breaks you made,
the ones you make.
Separate the tears from now all the... we will meet,
you and me.

you caught my eye,
when i walked by.
tension from the way you move,
your heart is bruised.
we sit and laugh,
it's all an act.
the lies they see you through,
you're such a fool.
put on your dress,
and look your best,
let this be your night,
we'll laugh and die.
So, drink it down,
you need this now,
make the pain go away,
I can't be saved.
As makeup runs down your cheeks,
you found that you are lost again.
Try to make your way back home,
found that you're alone.
Fall down,
searching for the perfect place,
for you to lose it all again.
Slow down,
keep it at a steady pace,
as I watch you fade away.

with bloodshot eyes, i watch you sleeping

2009-05-08T00:31:00.005+08:00

OMFG!
im super freaked out right now.
a feeling i cant explain.
i dont even know how i am writing this right now while im shaking profusely like some child afraid at the emergence of monsters formed by shadows casted from the moonlight shining through his window.

here's why.
i was walking to the kitchen to grab something to eat.
and when i walk past the front door, i heard two knocks on it.
and this happens twice with a second of interval to it.

i straight away ran to my room i tell you!
and hell, this is not a joke i swear and im not making up any stories.
it's 1.31AM.
and everybody else are asleep.

(praying hard)

im outside of your window, with my radio

2009-05-04T18:10:00.002+08:00

Just For Laughs

1. Losing all your friends

Man comes home, finds his wife with his friend in bed.
He shoots his friend and kills him.
Wife says 'If you behave like this, you will lose ALL your friends.'

2. Brother wanted

A small boy wrote to Santa Claus, 'send me a brother'...
Santa wrote back, 'SEND ME YOUR MOTHER'....

3. Meaning of WIFE

Husband asks, 'Do you know the meaning of WIFE?
It means 'Without Information Fighting Everytime!'
Wife replies, 'No, it means 'With Idiot For Ever!'

4. Importance of a period

Teacher: 'Do you know the importance of a period?'
Kid: 'Yeah, once my sister said she has missed one, my mom fainted,
dad got a heart attack & amp; our driver ! ran away.'

5. Confident vs. confidential

A young boy asks his Dad, 'What is the difference between confident and confidential?'
Dad says, 'You are my son, I'm confident about that.'
Your friend over there, is also my son, that's confidential!'

6. Anger management?

Husband: 'When I get mad at you, you never fight back.
How do you control your anger?'
Wife: 'I clean the toilet.'
Husband: 'How does that help?'
Wife: 'I use your toothbrush

HAHAHA!

she makes dirty words sound pretty

2009-05-01T18:33:00.008+08:00

A MUST SEE!

she seemed to have a problem with language.
HAHAHAHAA!

we are the only ones we are running from

2009-04-29T23:10:00.005+08:00

Bring it to your lips and experience
The sulfur infect everything that we've created.
Don't twist this around.
Don't attempt to justify what we know is wrong.
Tendons are torn and screams are released
Into a poisoned, mathematic atmosphere.
We're composing our funeral songs, note, note by note.
With this I declare that tomorrow is an allusion.
What if the clouds are, are fragments of mistakes,
Fabricated by the factors of our foolishness?
We're composing our funeral songs, note, note by note.
Prove me wrong

grandma said,
"why is your back wavy?"

in actual fact, its ripped. -.-
sexy back! =)))

man u and arsenal's champions league clash later in the morning!
have to watch it no matter what.
im sure gonna be exhausted tomorrow.
oh well.

he wears a sleek jacket and gold watch

2009-04-28T20:37:00.002+08:00

i was waiting for the bus home earlier today and i saw this lady, probably around her early 50s. she was well-dressed and doesnt look senile at all but the reason why i blogged about her its because of her behaviour.

almost everyone board the bus through the front entrance of the bus but this lady board the bus via the alighting door. i swear this is the first time i see this kind of behaviour and looking at her dressing, she look like a working professional who carries somehow a reputable position in her office. But wassup with her folly behaviour? i bet she was trying to make full use of the crowded advantage. and yeah, the bus was crowded and im sure the driver didnt saw her but wtf.
third world behaviour.

So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me

2009-04-27T21:38:00.004+08:00

This shit is fucking hilarious!

Look at batman's face! ROFL!

examine these beautiful faces

2009-04-26T16:41:00.002+08:00

Oh and yet, I've been cleansed.
And yet I've been cleansed with the water.
A purity no mind can grasp.
A purity so cool upon my fingertips.
The vision that I have seen.
This is the action that spawns from the end.
For the longest time, I've been watching the world breathe again.
What lies here,are mountains composed of tombstones.
Examine these beautiful faces, keep singing now, keep singing now.
Will we push bedlam noise to the state of blissfulness?
Display her beauty to the people.
A purity no mind can grasp.

headed to zai studios yesterday and seriously the place wasnt really quite what i expected it to be. not really convenient and a studio in the middle of industrial estates? thats totally not cool.
anyway, went there to support chris' barcodes for breakfast who played their virgin gig there. haha i have no reason not to be supporting my friends.
i really felt pity for hillary cause regardless her high fever, she was still there to support her bf and that really made me admired her strong-willed spirit.

i need to run.
gtg jog.

you pull me up, just to let me down

2009-04-24T23:13:00.004+08:00

im so excitedly anticipating for tomorrow.
Gonna head to zai studios but anybody had an idea where it's located?!
good thing i have friends to bring me there =)

got a haircut just now but not much a difference cause when i got home, this question was poured on me, 'did you cut your hair?'
and i answered, 'no, i didnt'.

oh i satisfy my music hunger by listening to Every Avenue's album. damn, it's good. like really good. yeah and im obviously recommending it here x)
so, which other band's unheard album should i listen to tomorrow?
maybe There For Tomorrow? i heard they had a new EP out.

Oh oh before i forgot, a good and kind person (dont say i didnt say good things to you uh) introduced me to this website and i found it a great tool to listen to new stuffs that you're unheard of from underground, indie up to mainstream. But obviously mainstream are the ones you already knew via the radio and mtv. musicovery.com is definitely a must-visit site to those souls who are really into music and are always hungry for new stuffs. gosh i sound like some music reviewer haha.

well im done.

A boy brushed red, living in black and white.

2009-04-23T22:10:00.006+08:00

Its good to see friends that you havent met for quite some time again. The feeling was just, wow. Headed to head to NP's gym today (making use of the free admission benefit) where i bumped upon my gay partner during secondary school days, Ky. Yes, i'm gay. Anything wrong? (like you would believe)

We had a good chat and haha finally i found someone who would gym with me. Finding a gym partner is serious not easy. Not alot of people are enthu about keeping fit and workout that often. Though some might go, it's only for awhile. Even if they said that they wanna go with you, during the last minute, they backed out and seriously, who the heck would be pleased. Availability is another issue. Monday, Wednesday, Friday. Tell me the number of people who would be available on these 3 days?
Haha.

Anyway, i saw Peiyi today at the gym. Who knows someone like her would gym and keep fit. No wonder she had those wicked curves. ;D

Cloud Nine

2009-04-16T20:03:00.003+08:00

Ever felt like walking through the clouds on a bright day sky at some point of a time?
Well, it probably gonna sound ridiculous but its possible.

Check this out.

This is The Millau Viaduct Bridge.

Beautiful isn't it?

MH fit!

2009-02-23T16:49:00.005+08:00

I read men's health magazine today and guess what i found out.

pull-ups.

an unfit guy can do none.

an average guy can only do one.

a fit guy can do more than 6.

and, a MH fit guy can do more than 9.

push-ups.

an unfit guy can do less than 20.

an average guy can do 20-30.

an fit guy can do more than 40.

and, a MH fit guy can do more than 50.

I can do 14 pull-ups and 50 push-ups in one shot.
So, i guess i'm more than MH fit =DDDD.

disastrous relationship

2009-02-22T17:45:00.000+08:00

here's 7 signs that you're in a disastrous relationship.

1. dishonesty - yourself or your partner

2. communication always ends up in an argument

3. putting the other on a pedestral and putting yourself down

4. destructive impulses

5. compromise at your own expense

6. feeling enclosed or shutting yourself off from other friends

7. fear of losing the other person with everything you do

blog's not dead

2009-02-21T11:06:00.001+08:00

Soccer yesterday! finally after hiatus and aftermath, aching bodyyyyyy =(.

anyway, i was with a conversation with rizal and suddenly my ex-gf's name came out. I dont know how but he thought that i treat her as a friend now but actually i still treat her as my ex-gf. then he said, "if you treat an ex-gf as an ex-gf still and not just a friend its because that you're still in love with her". Haha at first, i ridicules me but after a thought or two, it does seems to make some sense.

Just take a good look at me. why the heck am i still single after we've broken up for almost a year now. She has a boyfriend, two to be exact but the first one ended in a way i feel that its a retribution for leaving me. HAHA!
anyway, i had enough of friends saying that im still 'waiting' when i answered them that im not looking for a gf.

to clarify, im not. and i dont have anymore affinty towards her like i used to back then. Her lies had changed my perspective of her in a million ways and things just wont be the same.
So, does that make everyone happy? finally, a confession from me? haha.

Well, about finding someone new, maybe it's not the right time yet and i'd rather enjoy my singlehood cause i feel that i have total freedom and i can go out with anyone and whoever i want every week.

By the way, something just bothers me. and oh, this had nothing to with what i said on top.

Is it good or so called 'cool' to be bad-tempered and flaring them like nobody's business? well, yes im blogging openly here so read if you must. Get your bad self composed or enroled into an anger management seminar or class or someting for goodness' sake.
even so, people like this still do have friends or MAYBE, his 'friends' are just sucking up to him. Get a life, people!

I dont hate you or anything but i just detest the sight of it when it happens. I bet everyone around you does too.

meet you there

2009-01-29T19:55:00.002+08:00

Now you're gone
I wonder why
You left me here
I think about it on,
and on, and on, and on again

I know you're never coming back
I hope thatyou can hear me
I'm waiting to hear from you
Until I do..

You're gone away
I'm left alone
A part of me
Is gone and I'm not moving on
So wait for me
I know the day will come
I'll meet you there
no matter where life takes me to
I'll meet you there
And even if I leave you here
I'll meet you there

I wish I could of told you
the things I kept inside
but now I guess it's just to late
So many things remind me of you
I hope that you can hear me
I miss you
This is good-bye one last time

survey again

2009-01-27T19:37:00.000+08:00

ah before i forget,

another survey tagged to do by Stanley.

1. Do you have secrets?

yeah, who dont. haha.

2. Would you fall in love with a boy/girl younger than you?

yes, of course.

3. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?

as long. haha. im a devoted type of guy.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?

help to change the world cause its crying for so much more. and spend abit of it for myself too. hehe.

5. What will you be doing tomorrow?

erm, no plans yet.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?

being loved.

7. What do you love doing?

music, music, and music. and some sports.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?

wait but venture for someone else haha.

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?

yeah my friends =)

10. What makes you sad?

erm, i'm seldom got sad but disappointed is a better word.

11. If you’re attached but you feel as if your partner likes someone else too, what would you do?

find out the truth and let her go under her consent.

12. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?

yeah. i dont hold grudges too long.

13. What exactly are you thinking about now?

that someone =)

14. What is the most important thing you need from your boyfriend/girlfriend?

love and affection.

15. Do you believe that there’s "Love At First Sight"?

yes i do =)

tourney

2009-01-17T17:00:00.001+08:00

tournament day today and arrived at St. Wilfred's Field with morale not too low but certainly not high. We were not expecting to come out of this tournament in a decent position that we could be proud.

We were drawn in group 1 with 3 other teams and had to play a round-robin rule where every team have to play against each other and accumulate the total points where the top two teams qualify. The best thing is, every team received 2 big bottles of 100+ to hydrate themselves throughout the whole tournament.

So we played our first match and we lost 1-0. A big blow and that had made our morale dropped tremendously but determination was strong in the team and we managed to clinch a draw in the second game. This time our morale starts to improve a little but we knew our chances to qualify was slim. The team that had beaten us won both of their games by this time and they sit comfortably at the top of the group with 6 points wherelse we shared the same point as the team that we had drawn with. We knew that we had to win the next game which is also the last in order to qualify. Before the match, we prayed hard and set our tactics to a more possession play and finally towards the end of the game, Yann Chewn scored somewhat a goal that will maybe see us qualify provided that the team that we draw with in the second match draw again or lose in their third match, cause if they do win then we have to decide on penalty shoot-outs which is a very critical stage. And to our despair they managed to win but lucky not more than a goal cause they would have qualified instead of us. So its the penalty shoot-out to challenge for the second place in order to advance to the knock-out stage.

The atmosphere was tensed as stanley took the first spot kick for us. He did not failed us by scoring and that really lightened us up abit. every spot-kicks that were taken, the whole team stands in one line with arms on each other's shoulders, hoping for a miracle to happen. Domonic put alot of good saves and managed to save our goal from the other team's spot kicks. We were tied and we're down to steve, a bench-warmer who hardly makes the team, to do some miracle for us. everyone took a deep breath as steve shoots the ball, and landed into the net which guarantees our place in the knock-out stage.
This was somehow a joyous moment for us and steve who finally found himself useful and had made a name for himself. Celebrations were crazy and morales were high.

So we carried this high level of morale into the knock-out stage where we lost in the semi-finals by penalties after we managed to draw with a team who topped group 2. We can call ourselves as underdogs for our strong spirits and determination to overcome the better teams who boasts better players and emerging as a semifinalists in this tournament was certainly out of our minds and something that we could be proud of.

=)

tired now, but off to scape later.

Mental preparation

2009-01-16T17:13:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is the big day!
The tournament i have been waiting and looking forward to.
I am confident we could get through with the amount of depth in the team.
Seriously, we have better defenders this time and a better keeper.
So, all we had to do is to keep our attacking flow as smooth as possible.

And, i believe that getting myself mentally prepared will do alot of help.
I must be ready to motivate and encourage anybody who cant pick themselves up after a goal down.
What if i am the one? erm, lets just hope not. heh.

To the team,
For victory tomorrow!
Win the prize money and we gonna savour the biggest buffet we ever had in our life after that =)

ghastly account

2009-01-13T18:49:00.005+08:00

It was yesterday. Time check, 11.45pm.

I was engrossed in watching tv while snacking on some chips when out of a sudden, theres a knock on my window. And the best thing was, it was beside me which was right inline to where i was sitting.
so i thought it was nothing and continued muching on those chips and afew seconds later, theres the knock again. This time, it was twice.
I was rather shocked but kept cooled and knocked back. (I seriously did that).
So it didnt respond but a strange thing happened, sounds of things dropping as if they were thrown about were heard in my kitchen.
this time i already freaked out a little, but i braved myself to check it out. I switched on the lights but everything were in place and seems normal. So i start to wonder, what the hell is that noise about?
I went to the toilet after that and answered nature's call and when i'm done, i stepped out, everything seems abit freaky. Its rather cold i must say and what made worst is, strong wind suddenly blew into my kitchen window like some typhoon.
I tried hard to keep myself calm and went to bed after that.

This is a true account, i swear.

ggggyyyyyymmmmmm

2009-01-06T20:11:00.003+08:00

Before i start,
I WANT TO MEET SORA AOI!
im going crazy over her.
i make sure i'll invite her to be a part if FJH's music video in the future =D.

after a long time, i went to gym today and as days past by im seeing those pretty abs getting more toner and toner. XD
whatever.
So, my left hamstring hurts again and was thinking of seeing the doctor for the second time but i'll wait for a day or two for it to recover first.

I wonder why nobody understands me?
Seriously for god's sake, im trying to fucking change here? hello? cant you see?
i'm trying so hard and yet all you did was critisizing?
well, easy said, FUCK YOU!
(has nothing to do with my friends)

Anyway, can anybody give me pointers or advises to be a better leader?
seriously, i need them alot.

MATCH DAY!

2009-01-02T21:19:00.001+08:00

Had a match today and the scoreline was very enormous indeed with 17 goals.

Final score, we lost 9-8.

Kinda feel stupid with a very big scoreline. HAHA.

Nevertheless, everyone did a good job out there and even if we lost, the sportsmanship, and hardwork is there so no one was to be blamed. We played well as a team only to be vey unlucky not to win.

Aftermath, my whole aches badly.

its the new year!

2009-01-01T18:15:00.002+08:00

New year's eve well spent with friends.

Gonna post the pics up once i got them =)

So for my new year resolution,

Very simple. I just want to be the most kindest soul ever, helping more people in need and bringing smiles.

Another one is, i want to be more responsible and i wanna love myself more =)

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

sentosa!

2008-12-27T20:22:00.004+08:00

Was invited by steve to celebrate his birthday at sentosa yesterday. Well, we had a gay celebration after all and enjoyed myself at the end of the day.
And, i got badly sunburnt all over my body.

Steve was always being bullied and today, was no exceptional especially on his birthday =D
first he was dunked corpse-liked in the sea four times and had him buried inside the sand and stepped on.

Well, gay outing indeed.

So after that went St. James to slack the night out while watching Manchester United's match. Good thing they won.

DEAR SANTA,

2008-12-25T01:38:00.000+08:00

i've been a very very very good boy this year (not lying). Please, please, pleaseeeeee, make all my wishes come true.

Love,
Hid

my blue heaven

2008-12-22T18:44:00.001+08:00

Two sides twist and then collide
You're calling off the guards
I'm coming through
Adulteress conditioned to a spin cycled submission,
"You know, sometimes it just feels better to give in."

And it's all too familiar
And it happens all the time.
All the cards begin to stack up,
Twisting heartache into fine
Little pieces that avoid an awful crime.
But it's you I can't deny...

Dull heat rises from the sheets.
I'm both a patient boy...
Well, and a jealous man.
My double standardized suspicion is remedied
Oh my blue heaven
Sometimes it just feels better to give in
And it's all too familiar
And it happens all the time
All the cards begin to stack up,
Twisting heartache into fine
Little pieces that avoid an awful crime,
But it's you i can't deny...

We swing and we sway
As this tiny voice in
My head starts to sing
You're safe, child, you are safe.
You're safe, child, you are safe.

Safe (safe), safe (safe),
You are safe.

Is this all too familiar?
Does it happen all the time?
I'm just asking you to hear me...

Could you please,
Just once,
Just hear me...

More than anything you wanted to be right...
You want more than anything to be right.
Still it's you...
You,
It's you i can't deny

Save Santa! Save Christmas!

2008-12-21T19:02:00.001+08:00

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Bump into Designer Artists and Celebrities and get to win loads of prizes before Christmas even begins(:

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Venue: Butter Factory

When: Tuesday, 23rd December 2008

Door Unleash :9pm-3am

1 for 1 Drink Deal from 10pm-12am.

And guess what?

Be the first 100 to arrive and get a free band privilege card. Also, 300 goodie bags from dont panic are waiting!
Drinking competition.(:

And and and.

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SO, HURRY UP!.

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- 15% discount for all Trioon products except Trioon:Black apparel

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- 10% below a $100 purchase
- 15% above $100

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- 25% off for 2hours of jamming

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- Collage is giving 10%
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Pm me for tickets!

saq

2008-12-15T18:29:00.003+08:00

i did this is upon stanley's request. The questions are copy-pasted from his blog.

(1): Would u prefer your girlfriend have makeup often or be as natural as they can be?

any. but not to excessive. i prefer girls with heavy eye make-ups cause thats attracting to me.

(2): What if your girlfriend has an accident and most likely would be disfigured/physically disabled/mentally disabled, would u still love her or breakup?

breakup. though it might be cruel but still, i dont plan for a long-term relationship.

(3): What if your girlfriend one day says she is not a virgin, what will u do?

i dont mind. whats past is the past, as long as she loves me with all her heart, thats already enough.

(4): Would u still love a girl who has done everything bad to u but had since make it up to u?

definitely a no.

(5): What if your gf is the type who flirts around and still doing so even after being with u, would u still want to be with her?

flirt? hell no. i dont mind she make friends.

(6): If an average looking girl come forward to u and says she like u, would u accept or reject?
(a)assuming u both know each other.
(b)assuming u both dont know each other.
(c)assuming the character is what u like.
(d)assuming the character isnt what u like.

(a)erm, depends.
(b)if she's pretty, i dont mind.
(c)depends lah
(d)erm, same as (b)

(7): If u suddenly realise the girl u like has been toying with u all along, what will u do?Still pursue her or give up?

dump her lah. why be so stupid.

(8): What will u do if u suddenly found out that one of your friends is also trying to chase after the girl u like?

friends first for me. but if i really like her, i'll give a challenge.

(9): What will u do if u found out that the girl u like/girlfriend has a connection with another guy and seem to be rather close too?

he's not my friend so i'll challenge.

(10): Would u like a girl who is not really good looking and/or has some physical/mental problems?even if she is the type u are looking for?

erm, if shes not good-looking, shes obviously not my type.

lazy sunday

2008-12-14T21:25:00.000+08:00

i slept for 15 hours and i just feel like sleeping the whole dayyyyyyyyyyyyy

praises

2008-12-12T22:22:00.001+08:00

praises lift everybody's spirits and you should give them generously. like today, Mr. Dong suddenly praise my body and hair by the pull-up bar after we did some pull-ups. Was rather shock but it feels good and certainly those two praises made my day.
Still, i think he's gay.

dont know why its so tiring today. shag ah!

thursday

2008-12-11T23:18:00.002+08:00

like finally, i had a good night swim today but i havent been swimming for quite sometime that i cant even swim properly anymore.
need to work on that.

anyway, advanced christmas celebration was okay. but the atmosphere was rather strange for me and i felt that i dont fit in anymore. the lecturers were all strangers to me, even some our the class people are not as friendly as usual.
well, gonna consider hard whether or not to come for the next chalet cause i dont want to feel left out again.

dreams

2008-12-10T17:25:00.001+08:00

Everyone has got a dream.

Whats yours?

Leave a tag and tell me =)

Woes

2008-11-29T00:05:00.000+08:00

Good game of soccer ended with misery.
I've got a swollen toe and a pulled hamstring.
It's not really painful after the game on the day itself and i didnt know that i had picked up this injury but the next day, which is today, was freaking painful.
Let me try if i can type with my toe, ggggggggg

Doctor told me to rest, so i had to stay at home. boring.

Situations

2008-11-28T20:05:00.004+08:00

Situations are irrelevant now
She loves the way that I tease
I love the way that she breathes
I touched her...
She touched my...
It was the craziest thing.
I love the girls who hate to love because they're just like me
A certain girl she took my hand and ran it up her thigh
She licked her lips and pulled my hair, I fall in love for a night

She can't behave and I'm just a slave
don’t worry I'll be gone when the morning comes.

Darling, what is going on?
Honestly that never happened, lying is your favorite passion.
Leave me, go where you belong
Higher heels and lipstick napkins, dying is your latest fashion.

The frustration it's a regular thing
I hate the ones who love to hate because they're just like me.
A certain girl she took her hand and put in my lap.
"It's way too full", she said "Once you have me you'll always come back."

I know you love to insist and all it takes is a kiss and you just love to hate me.
You know you love all the lies so don’t act surprised that I just love to hate you.
I kissed your lips you pulled my hair it was the craziest thing
I love the girls who love to hate.

Crossroads

2008-11-25T20:02:00.000+08:00

Zouk In

2008-11-21T21:47:00.002+08:00

Okay i've got to write something.

HELLOOOOO FELLOW PARTY PEOPLE!

"The crossroards" @ ZOUK, 1st DECEMBER 2008, 10pm till late!
(16 and above only)

Please grab your tickets now as we only have a limited number of tickets to ensure that there will be no over-crowding.

Tickets are at $20 (presale) with a free alcoholic drink for 18 and above!

First 100 guests will receive :

1)The Band Privilege Card
2)Lifestyle Packs

Thereafter, 200 guests will receive:
1)Lifestyle packs!
FOR FREEEEEE!

Hampers worth $500 from eng wah cinema and sonic gear to be given to best dressed guy and girl!

So dress to impress!

We believe in this love

2008-11-19T18:10:00.002+08:00

There’s a woman crying out tonight
Her world has changed
She asks god why
Her only son has died
And now her daughter cries
She can’t sleep at night

Downtown, another day for all the suits and ties
Another war to fight
There’s no regard for life
How do they sleep at night
How can we make things right
Just wanna make this right

We are all the same
Human in all our ways and all our pains
There’s a love that could fall down like rain
Let forgiveness wash away the pain
And no one really knows what they are searching for
This world is crying for so much more

So this world is too much for you to take
Just lay it down and follow me
I’ll be everything you need
In everyway

Untitled

2008-11-14T18:04:00.004+08:00

Round and round i've searched for that someone,
And from the start i knew you were the one.
Catching my attention with that gorgeous eyes,
Hopefully it's not like other women's lies.
Everything seems to be fine,
Lord, i just want you to be mine.

Reminiscing the first time i saw you,
Almost everyday now i think of you.
Couldnt seem to get you out of my head,
Hope and pray that i could see you again.
Every minute and everyday,
Love is not easy to explain.

Ready or not i have to pick up,
All my courage to ask you up.
Cause fearing i might not have a chance to love you,
Hopefully i will and you would love me to.
Ending the emptiness in my heart,
Lastly, this is written from the bottom of my heart.

=)

Kingdom of Terabithia

2008-11-12T17:58:00.000+08:00

Close your eyes and visualise a place.

A place where you rule and not a waste.

Be it a kingdom of your own or a getaway,

It could be near and also faraway.

Habited by creatures you have never seen,

Its just like another hollywood scene.

The movies you've watched and the storybook you've read,

All comes alive at the tip of your eyelid.

So you are the king, now choose your queen.

Rule the kingdom with a happy ending.

Photography

2008-11-01T17:43:00.002+08:00

I wanna take up photography as a hobby. I also need at least $2K to start for a DSLR camera and photographing equipments.

By joining Digiphoto, it serves as a base for me to start on this and give me first-hand experience on taking professional pictures.

I will love this i promise =)

Dance Night

2008-10-31T23:55:00.003+08:00

Dancing all night long in NP's convention centre. What a great night =)

Pissed

2008-10-28T17:02:00.001+08:00

Parents act like they know you inside out.

But in actual fact they dont.

And they never will.

The emptiness is filling me.

I longed so much for affection.

Care and love too.

But where are they?

I really need someone to talk to.

to pretty boy

2008-10-23T23:09:00.001+08:00

before i start, i wanna highlight some thing great today.
in soccer today, i dribbled past the whole opposition players and scored. awesome huh? xD

okay back to what i intended to write.

to pretty boy,

in response to your blog post, i understand that you dont want to feel inferior to others and im sure thtas what everyone wants.
people always want to show that they are good and tries to give their bestest performance and that happens to me too.
in a non-competitive match, i tend to play a much fancy game and show off my dribbling qualities but in a competitve match, i prefer to be a commanding figure to the team.

anyway, dont write your post until you did something wrong to me cause you didnt and what happens in th epitch stays in the pitch. =)

Check Yes Juliet

2008-10-23T18:22:00.002+08:00

Check this out, I'm sure you'll love it =)

Get Over It

2008-10-22T18:20:00.000+08:00

I post this out of boredom an im sure it make sense.

Getting dumped is never easy. So how do we pick ourselves up and get over it?

I remember the time i was dumped by my girl. And as they all say, "there's just that fine line between love and hate". She was the sweetest thing, but when she took that final step to call the break and drive that dagger deep right through my heart, she was also the most coldhearted, callous creature in the unverse.
I couldn't sleep and eat. Every single thing would remind me of her. The songs we used to sing would play on the radio and I could still recall the first time we danced. I would pass a certain place and the memories we shared would instantly destroy all efforts to forget her and force a tear from my eye. The slightest similarity , no matter how remote, would spark off the good old times we've ever had. Her face, her voice, her touch. Every different check-in into heartbreak hotel is always painful. So i wanna share my healing process to those heartbroken souls out there.

1. Dump whatever belonged to her. The love letters she wrote telling how much she loved and missed you, the photos of her or which you both took together. Face the truth, recognise the fact that it's over. Keep telling yourself that it's her loss so it's time to get over it.

2. Confide in someone you trust. The last thing to do is to bottle it up. Tell a friend or vent it all out to a family. Cry hard if you need to, let those feelings out, and you will feel like a whole new person after that.

3. Get busy with life. Be it school or cca or anything that you loved to do. This will take up all your time you spend instead of thinking about her.

4. Hang out with friends and engage in group activites. giggle with your friends over silly jokes or even do something crazy and have a good laugh.

5. Take up a sport or if you're already into sports, excel in it. The idea is to keep fit but you can go as far as making singapore proud.

6. It's all in the head. The way you think affects your healing process. The right mindset will help you get over it shorter than you thought it will be.

There are also the wrong methods you will be tempted to do when you're depressed, down in the dumps, and not thinking straight. you should never try these when you're out of love, and here's why.

1. Drinking and smoking takes the pain away.
Some will resort to alcohol, cigarettes, or in more extreme cases, drugs. Don't be stupid enough to try any of these. Alcohol will simply get you drunk for the night, and you wake up the next morning with a horrible hangover, feeling much worse than before. Smoking is so not cool and cigarettes do nothing more than destroying your health and shortening your lifespan. Don't ever get near drugs. They do not provide any form of relieve from your heartache and instead, land you on the wrong side of law or worst, costing your life.

2. Suicide.
this is an absolute NO to try get any form of attention from the person who dumped you. Slitting your wrist or overdosing on pills will not bring her back to you. This age old threat is stale, cliche, and overused. She will simply laugh at your immaturity while you're lying in your hospital bed regretting what you've done. Suicide will serve no purpose other than a mere high school threat.

3. Finding a replacement to ease the pain.
When you're out in love, there's always that temptation to find a replacement to help soothe that transition period of loss and pain. However, you didn't know that you are just hurting that someone else by making use of that person to fill the void and cover that fresh wound of yours. But why hurt someone else when no one deserves that pain?

4. You get stronger with every heartbreak.
there's no such thing as lesser pain felt with more heartbreaks under your belt. Every single breakup is a whole new experience and it's never the same as the previous ones you've had.

But one thing for sure. You learn something from every new relationship. I firmly believe that "time heals all wounds", and if you tell yourself you are strong, and pick yourself up again everytime you fall, nature will take its course, and someday, that special someone will just waltz into your life when you least expect it. =)

Never fades

2008-10-20T18:17:00.001+08:00

It's been awhile since i last posted a vid here. so,

here's my all-time favourite song and i will never get bored of it.

back again

2008-10-16T20:02:00.000+08:00

like finally,
the smell of the studio cure the love-sickness i had.
the sound of the amplifier bursting every notes i play to the max is what my ear always wanted to hear.
the sound of the drums pounding my ear drums hard
and the cymbals as always making my ears blocked.

'always' and 'soundtrack 49' completed =)

5 things you should know about me

2008-10-14T20:20:00.004+08:00

1) I dont dare to be myself when my parents are around.

2) I drink Nutrisoy alot.

3) My favourite colours are blue and black

4) I play the guitar for the band, Finding Jessie Hall.

5) My music playlist is 80% rock.

never be forgotten

2008-10-10T18:30:00.004+08:00

chalet is overrrr.
and im missing everyone already.
Our guys' talk all night long, mass bathing with gay songs, and the joy we had during the 3 days.
well, wish all of you the best for your coming semester =)

but still, some things just cant continue.
it's not a good sight at all.

birthday boy

2008-10-04T23:29:00.001+08:00

welcome the 18-year-old me!

anyway i wanna thank everyone for the wishes and gifts =)

let's kick some balls!

2008-09-24T23:13:00.002+08:00

Like finally after what seemed like forever, i played soccer again!
and i scored 4 goals! =D
But skill wise, I'm not up to what i used to.

anyway, grandma said i became chubbier. did i? 0.o

I've gained 5 more kilos last month
and my goal for the festive season, gain another 5 kilos! or more.. =)

Gym-lust

2008-09-22T17:57:00.002+08:00

I miss the gym,

The machines it houses, which i always use

the smell of sweat from people who work those muscles out,

the hot body of men and women which I always saw,

the sight of babes running on the threadmill,

and guys sprinting for 3 kilometres long,

the songs that were playing on the sound systems,

the gym instructors training bodybuilders,

those dumb guys who only work that upper body and neglecting their lower body,

resulting in an unproportionate body which they think its nice,

but actually it is seriously not.

and the hot showers after working out.

Day Out

2008-09-19T23:18:00.000+08:00

Went sentosa to relax and have fun while playing under the sun =)

watching the beautiful sunset

the aftermath

2008-09-14T17:41:00.001+08:00

'BIG BANG' was a BLAST!
Even the media came down and Chris and me got interviewed =D
Almost everyone enjoyed themselves.
But sadly, i didnt get the chance to fully experience the whole line-ups of performances cause i have to like run around the whole day and makes me damn tired.

So, I'm asked to do time checking again. Or to say it in appropriate term, stage managing.
Well, i did it with Eve and it's just like an ordinary time check i usually did in most events.
But this is the first time i did it with help.

Door-sales were good. I wanna thank Mathilde for that =)

Some pics uploaded from the event

and the picture of the day..
look, mathilde! it's the balloon you gave me as a gift! =D

when the sky is red

2008-09-12T17:38:00.002+08:00

I'm so so eagerly anticipating tomorrow's 'BIG BANG'!

OMG! im so excited!

What should i wear? =D

big bang!

2008-08-28T16:41:00.001+08:00

Freemansland,
proudly presents
'Big bang'
Band Privilege Card Launch.

Where: Zouk
When: 13th Sept, Saturday 0012-0830

What:
- Live band competition
Bands are,
1)Shotgun Start
2)Audiocean
3)FaceOff
4)Sunny's Violet Ray
*Featuring bands like and CIGARETTE SEX ,DEAFENING SILENCE AND GREAT SPY EXPERIMENT!!

- Fashion show by COLLAGE

- Dance Battle
1) Freestyle
2) Break dancers
- Featuring Floor Technique ( One of the best breaking crew in SG)

ALL AGE event at Zouk!
Every ticket comes with a
1)Complimentary drink
2)Goodie bag kindly sponsored by Collage
3)Chances to win 50 Band Privilege Cards
4)The Band Privilege Card could be yours at a much cheaper price!

*The Band Privilege Card will entitle card holders
to discount privileges at participating outlets as stated below:

1.Collage
** Collage is giving 10%, and 20% for members whose birthdays fall on their birthday week
2.CritusAlley
** 10% Discount- $50 purchase & above
** 20% Discount - $120 purchase & above
3.Trioon
** 15% discount for all Trioon products except Trioon:Black apparel
4.MONO+
**Purchase: 10% for $100 and below , 15% for $150 and above
5.VictoriaJomo
**10% below a $100 purchase and 15% above $100
6.Jade Music Trading
**25% off for 2 hours of Jamming
7.Dulcetfig
**10% discount on all regular priced items
8.Homeclub
**10% off all regular priced items

Tickets are:
Pre-Sale - $20
Door-Sale - $25

*Goodie bag inside will have a guitar necklace and other stuffs.

3)Chances to win 50 Band Privilege Cards during the event

4)The Band Privilege Card could be yours FOR FREE IF:

4.1) Purchase tickets before 23th August 2008.

After which,
24th August 2008 - 1th September 2008 -- $4
2th September 2008 - 10th September 2008 -- $8

Those of 18 years and above can stay to party for free! PARTY PARTY PARTY!

for tickets, leave me a tag or email me at punk.anarchist@hotmail.com =)

Last Day of Sem1!

2008-08-08T14:54:00.008+08:00

Last day of Sem1! woo~

Had PF presentation today in the morning and after that photo-taking! =)

and the picture of the day is.....

i found this pic in acc's blog without my knowledge. -.-
anyway, he's the china guy whom i always disturb in class such as the 'mary jane' case and this,

stress management

2008-08-06T20:46:00.001+08:00

was so so so stressed that we actually..... er... erm well, look for yourself...

studying can turn you into something else
so the moral of the story is,
don't study.

ps. i don't know why there are 2 videos but obviously i uploaded one only. just play the one at the top cause the bottom one seemed to be something extra

random

2008-08-05T18:17:00.005+08:00

16 REASONS WHY SOCCER IS BETTER THAN SEX...

1. There are loads of action replays.

2. Your mum and dad actually cheer when you score.

3. It's legal to play professionally.

4. You can always sit out your contract then play with someone else.

5. You can count on it every Saturday (and just about every other day of the week if you have football channel).

6. Size doesn't matter.

7. Ireland are crap at it, but at least you can blame the manager rather than the participants.

8. You can watch it going on in your local pub.

9. You can juggle your balls in front of your auntie.

10. Your manager actually encourages you to practise by yourself.

11. It lasts at least 90 minutes, and sometimes goes into extra time.

12. We were going to mention dribbling skills but then again maybe we shouldn't.

13. If you're a bloke, it's perfectly okay to want George Best's baby.

14. You have a coach on the sidelines while you're doing it.

15. Women love England's footballers because they can be on top for 80 minutes and still come second.

16.You can score using your head or your feet.

third eye

2008-08-02T23:36:00.003+08:00

omg i didnt know that my little brother actually have a third eye.
he said something like, "mom, i saw something at the tree" when we were like walking back to our car. but there's nothing there.

after that head to homeclub to meet louis. saw alot of familiar faces and i wanted to spend more time there but too bad i have to leave early.

i kinda 'interviewed' my brother after that...

Hid: Mik, what did you saw just now?

Mikail: There's a lady at hanging on the tree and look as though she's gonna die.

Hid: Oh, what did she dressed in?

Mikail: A white dress

Hid: Then whats her face like?

Mikail: She has blood all over and she looked angry.

ps. this convo is editted cause he is like 6 and dont speak english that well.

So i assumed that,
a lady hanged herself on that tree and die with vengeance.

eerie.
=/

flights of fancy

2008-08-01T19:45:00.002+08:00

Sit with me, come and play

I need you, so near.

Stay awhile, for a day.

Or maybe two, have no fear.

Time has come, wish we could get it back

but it's too late...

And I miss you the most.

Sing to me, once again in your room like old days.

Speak to me, it depends on how you'd do in old ways.

Bring me back little smiles,

And funny ways when you speak to me.

Bring me back all your whiles,

when they call fancy.

hot

2008-07-31T18:25:00.005+08:00

today is the end of CATS class! yayy!
and..
i managed to talk to that hot guy in my CATS class for the first time.
omg he's really hot =D
he look like those taiwanese/hongkong superstar.
hahahaha.

off-form

2008-07-30T22:37:00.002+08:00

my skin is burning! omg!
the aftermath of 'suntanning' in a soccer game.
and was totally like off-formed in that game.

crashed Singapore Poly's foodcourt for lunch.
and got a free tour around Singapore Poly by louis.
and slacked at starbucks at night after soccer.
been awhile since we spend time this long together.
not gay.

weird day

2008-07-29T20:56:00.002+08:00

omg! i think im dreaming...

this is the first time i saw Ben really concentrating 100%.

for your info, he's just beside me in the pic =D

just another

2008-07-28T10:44:00.004+08:00

I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three

As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed

it hurts

2008-07-27T09:49:00.000+08:00

we lost it all

and nothing last forever

it's just too late

we can't go back.

i won't regret every single moment i once had with you..

someone help!

2008-07-26T13:42:00.001+08:00

im suffering from severe low morale and confidence level.

can someone help me?

at least lighten my spirits up...

sighs

matt's advanced birthday celebration!

2008-07-25T17:36:00.007+08:00

Matt's birthday is this sunday but we held an advanced birthday celebration for him.

But before that, i met jodi for lunch =)

that delicious cake which i don't get a chance to taste =(
but i feasted on this instead =)

stanley's smile says it all
now his turn to 'do'
i was groaning in pain cause ben accidentally whacked my peewee
candid.
matt picking up the courage
i'm learning to be the third party in relationships. not against my will to become like this

so some ACC members have set up a comittee called Ngee Ann Paranormal Investigators(NPPI) to solve all the mysteries in Ngee Ann Poly. Our first mission is to solve the mysteries of block 50 and we did two tours.
one tour we did is in the day and another is in the evening.
we used two different cameras to record our tour and both cameras seemed to have found a glimpse of something after very very close analyzation. at first view, it may seemed like there's nothing.

the vids can be found in ACC's blog for viewing =)

equation of life (for the time being)

2008-07-23T10:12:00.002+08:00

assignments
tutorials
projects
meetings

IMAGE-HEAVY!

2008-07-21T18:18:00.011+08:00

We were studying for our mtm test tomorrow and were so stressed so we... erm... erm... well... see for yourself. xD

studying can turn you into something else
so the moral of the story is...
dont study.

WeekendTRIP

2008-07-19T23:19:00.002+08:00

went to scape to catch WEST GRAND BOULEVARD!!
omg! they were awesomeeee!

met up with louis, kaisheng, hillary, van and amet at scape.
just in time to see deputy siren playing.
i can't believed that people actually moshed at plain sunset's music! wtf!

so headed to mount sophia for rsc bloc party and plain sunset were play there too.
i was sooo thirsty that i went to hunt for drinks and i cant believed that yeo's drinks were sold at $2 per can!

catched the last bus just in time with louis and it was so cramped that we had to squeeze ourselves at the front door.

It's fridayyyy

2008-07-18T21:02:00.001+08:00

emily's idea to camwhore in engineering mechanic's lab class.

fuck racism

2008-07-17T09:41:00.000+08:00

thursdays sucks as usual.

this goes to the china guy in my CATS group who cant speak english properly and always speaks chinese and making everyone else in my group speak chinese instead of english.

"go fucking learn english you fucking bastard. singaporeans speaks english and if you wanna come here you should jolly well know that this is an english-speaking society. Enough said, learn your fucking english."

okay.. and i cant wait for tomorrow's MDE Games Day.
good luck to everyone in the team and may god be on our side =)

mysteries of blk 50 in NgeeAnnPoly

2008-07-16T21:12:00.003+08:00

well as you can see, the title says it all.
so i wanna share what my group of friends and i experienced today.

this is a pic of one of the lift in blk 50. is there anything fishy?

after class on the 2nd floor at around 4.30pm, we headed to the lift as usual but this time, both lift broke down.
and one of the lift shows 7! and the door of the other lift suddenly open and closed by itself after we pressed the button.
creepy.....

for those who studied in NgeeAnnPoly and who have been to block 50 will know that this block have only 6 floors.
initially, there were 8 floors but the top two floors have been demolished due to some reasons.
from what i have heard, it is believed that a girl committed suicide at the 8th floor but ended up falling to the 7th floor, dead.
and therefore, the top two floors were demolished and blocked by a tightly secured gate at the 6th floor.
even the lifts have only 6 floors to go to and whats with the number 7 we saw?

another thing, the railings on the stairs of the block were painted red whereas elsewhere is in normal metallic silver.
I've asked around and many told me that there's blood all over the place when the girl committed suicide and the stains cant be cleaned away at the railings. so the whole railings were painted red instead.
there's also alot of joysticks around block 50.

Previously, night classes were held at block 50 but were moved to block 56. it is because its much nearer to the bus stop or something is not right?
i heard that the girl's toilet on the 6th floor is haunted cause some said that they heard voices inside it from the girl who committed suicide......

concorde

2008-07-14T09:21:00.009+08:00

I found out something interesting in engineering mechanics class which i'm still having trouble believing.

let's take a look at this pic

you might think it's just some ordinary plane, right?

its made in France, but do you actually believed that this plane travels at the speed of sound?

which means that it travels at 330m/s!

now look at this...

this plane is called Tupolev Tu-144.

a modified version of the concorde and its made in Russia.

and it travels at a speed of 160.9 km/h faster than the concorde!

im still quite amazed and suprised at how fast these planes go and im still having trouble believing.
no wonder it's called the supersonic airliner.

inspirations galore

2008-07-13T11:31:00.000+08:00

omg! i finished writing almost every FINDING JESSIE HALL's songs.
today inspirations do come like nobody's business.

anyway, cant wait for semester break!
though its a holiday to give myself a break from school, life will continue to be tiringgg cause...
FINDING JESSIE HALL managed to secure a recording deal!! =D
im so excited!!
so we will be like camping in the recording studio for hours and weeks.
may sound boring to some of you but its what i love doing. haha.

well, it's been sometime since i chatted with my beloved friends in msn.
all of you are dearly missed =)

ferrari ferrari ferrari

2008-07-12T23:20:00.001+08:00

i saw this ferrari parked right beside our car after i had dinner with my family =D

monsterous

2008-07-11T23:09:00.005+08:00

PF class really bore us to death so.. so.. so....

i present to you....

emily the monsterrrrrr!

RROOOAAARRRRR!!

the moral of the story is,

dont study.

so i rushed to Young Musicians Society(YMS) after lessons for a gig. so tiredd.

that pretty thing in the bus

2008-07-08T22:26:00.006+08:00

from the corner of my eyes i saw you staring from afar
the way our eyes locked, send my heart throbbing so fast
as i sat beside you, the scent you carry send me to fantasy
as sweet as a sugar, your actions melt me
making me wished i could stay longer with you
didnt thought that you stayed near me too
=)

LIAR!

2008-07-07T15:28:00.007+08:00

i just found out that someone had lied to me for 9days without feeling any guilt.
awesome huh?

well, so MDE Games Day coming up.
my aim is to lead the team to win the competition no matter what.
i feel that this team comprises of superb players and i know we can make it.

i eagerly cant wait for my leg to get well again so that i can kick a soccer ball and SOMEONE'S FUCKING FACE.

so i wanna write about my current situation.
kaisheng said that nowadays, im more or less becoming much like him or he is becoming much like me.
the thing he meant is that we get angry faster as usual and its something like bad-tempered?
he said the reason is that we felt insecure.
insecure over? i dont really get you. haha!
well, yeah. thats all

un-sweetness

2008-07-04T23:42:00.009+08:00

i got addicted to this song for a few weeks now.

can i melt in your eyes again like the first time?
stay with me...

deep inside im missing you so so so much.

mtm sucka

2008-07-02T20:28:00.000+08:00

nothing much today.
out of boredom and gayness, rizal and me took this..

HAHAHAHAHAHA!
for your info, thats not my hand.

i really wanna say sorry to jacq cause i was supposed to come over to her IE ice-cream stall thing but i got an SOE elective briefing and before it's even finish, you're already closed shop.
i really want an ice-cream!
boo =(

so i wanted to finish up my assignments but i realised that i didnt bring my engineering mechanics book only after emily mentioned about it. So i thought of doing my PF but then.... stanley pangseh. sob.

and shit, IS module tomorrow.
SIGHS!
borrringggggg. *yawns*

"If you love her, let her go. If she comes back, she is your real true love"

this is the phrase which i hold on to up till now....

recognition

2008-06-30T17:56:00.003+08:00

I wanna thank these people for the support and encouragement they gave me to pull myself through the most difficult time i had ever experienced.

firstly,

my mom.
thanks for spending the whole morning not sleeping to comfort and accompany me. listening to my cries and my shouts. i'll always love you.

jacqualine.
my best ever mentor i had. thanks for letting me cry my heart out over the phone and i will always follow your advice =)

louis.
my bestest buddy and my sexy vocalist. thanks for all the encouragement and motivation. the first one to know my problems, you always try your best to give me helpful solutions. thanks for helping me to drift my mind away whenever you know im thinking of the past

stanley and ben.
thanks for giving me a listening ear at queensway macdonalds. and thanks alot, stanley, for the encouragement you wrote to me on ACC's blog. it really means alot to me and well ben, thanks for adding in abit to the post. haha

i know there's still more i wanna thank but these people really have helped me alot to overcome this difficult period of time and im totally grateful to them.

for those people i did not mentioned, im really very sorry. i wanna thank all of you too. seriously, without all of your concerns and encouragement, i dont think i will be as cheerful again.

yours sincerely,

Hid =)

bao-ness

2008-06-29T18:38:00.000+08:00

bao, says:
hi
Hid Iero says:
low
bao, says:
milk

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!

Festival for a future

2008-06-28T23:45:00.000+08:00

Festival For A Future:
Sunday - The following day is a youth holiday, 6th July, Glass pavilion, 2.00pm-10.00pm.

“If we’re gonna rock at all, it might as well be for good.” That’s what a group of students from RGS decided when they set about organising Festival for a Future, a charity music-cum-fashion showcase to raise funds for the construction of a village school is Chongqing, China. Featuring local acts Deafening Silence,Electrico, Caracal, A Vacant Affair and The Fire Fight, as well as bands from schools across the country, with a fashion show or two thrown in for taste, FFAF promises to deliver a night to rock you – and all in the name of good.

Band timings:
2pm-For This Cycle
220pm-Fire Away, Samson!
240pm-Adieu
3pm-Armchair Critic
320pm-10 Minutes Late
340pm-12:01
400pm-Finding Michelle
420pm-XD
440pm-Humongous C
5pm-Deafening Silence
520pm-How To Kill A Muffin Man
540pm-Grace’s
6pm-Redeeming The Riot
620pm-A Vacant Affair
705pm-The Fire Fight
750pm-Caracal
835pm-Electrico
920pm-Fashion Show

All tickets are sold subject to the following conditions:
1. No refunds or exchange or tickets will be made under any circumstances, including but not limited to loss of ticket.
2. Tickets cannot be exchanges for cash.
3. No unauthorized replication of tickets is allowed.
4. Ticket Holder agrees to submit to any search for prohibited items including but not limited to weapons, controlled, dangerous and illegal substances.
5. Alcohol, cigarettes, sharp objects, illegal substances and weapons will be confiscated at the door.
6. No immodest behaviour including but not limited to obscene displays of affection will be tolerated.
7. Any violent behaviour is not tolerated.
8. Security personnel have the right to refuse entry or ask individuals to leave the concert should there be inappropriate behaviour, without compensation or refund.
9. Ticket Holder voluntarily assumes all risk and danger incidental to the event whether occurring prior to, during or subsequent to the actual event, including any loss, personal injury, damage or liability.
10. In the event of any personal injury, death, loss or damage however caused while in the venue, Building and Funding a Future and Raffles Girls’ School (Secondary) will not be liable.
11. Building and Funding a Future reserves the right to postpone, cancel, interrupt or stop the event.
12. Building and Funding a Future reserves the right to add, withdraw or substitute artistes and event times without prior notice.

TICKETS ARE AT $20-PRESALE.$25-DOORSALE
100% TO CHARITY

pm me for tickets.
DO YOUR PART FOR CHARITY WILL YOU? =)

Fry-day

2008-06-27T23:45:00.000+08:00

Was bored during PF in the morning so i webcammed my classmate, do crazy stuffs, and well, take abit of pictures. XD

today is black parade day!
but rizal pangseh.
you idiot!

so i stayed up with stanley and white ranger till like 9pm in school to finish up my work and stuffs.
trust me, im gonna study as hard this term and will not repeat my mistakes in the previous term.
i wanna clear all my modules once and for all!

and im hating thursdays. damn you IS module!
my upper body is aching from S&W's wellness programme.
the aftermath of gym without working out beforehand.
=(

do it for charity! =)

2008-06-26T22:33:00.000+08:00

new term

2008-06-25T20:30:00.002+08:00

well, school reopens!
and well, let the pics do the talking =)

and i found this ridiculously GAY pic on guan's friendster photo album

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

so after school i met up with Kailing at Toa Payoh Hub and catch up on our lives
the journey to and fro was damn long and tiring..

P.S.

JAMIE; get a good rest alright cause i can see the tiredness in your face and its affecting your cuteness much =)

STAN; don't give up on her! you're handsome for sure.

BEN; as you told me, there are more fishes or sotongs(for your case) in the sea =D

RIZAL; hows the song, man? just say its nice.

GUAN; hilarious gay pic dude! hahahahaha!

EMILY; you look damn hot in FBT shorts X)

LOUIS; meet up soon for dinner, bro.

PEIBAO; you're still drop dead gorgeous and dont blabber about your hair =D

DICKSON; I want my $18 back, thank you.

ZACK; tomorrow's your birthday, bro! excited? haha.

on this 22nd,

2008-06-22T01:25:00.003+08:00

I swear that you don't have to go

I thought we could wait for the fireworks

I thought we could wait for the snow

I thought I could live in your arms

And spend every moment I had with you

We could stay up all night with the stars

I would confess all the faith that I had in you

To late, I'm sure and lonely...

Another night, another dream wasted on you

This ANNIVERSARY may never be the same

Inside I hope you know I'm dying

With my heart beside me

In shattered pieces that may never be replaced

And if I die right now, you'd never be the same

Together we would find us an opening

Moonlight would provide the spark

And that I would stumble across the key or break down the door to your heart

Forever could see us not you and me

And you'd help me out of the dark

I'd give my heart as an offering

I will always remember you as you are right now to me, I will always remember now

I sleep alone tonight with no one here just by my side

How does he feel?

How does he kiss?

How does he taste while he's on your lips?

I can't forget you

I know you want me to

And I can't forgive you

I know you want me to

Congratulations, I hate you

2008-06-20T17:26:00.004+08:00

No one ever said that life was fair and I'm not saying that it should be

So knowing that you are what you want to be and I'm not, comes as no surprise

But dont expect me to be happy for you

And dont smile at me and tell me things will work out for me too

I dont want your pity...

I HATE YOUR PITY!!!

Taste your vanity and it's sweet bitterness

As you hide behind your veil of my stolen hopes and lost dreams

You took them all...

I watched you steal my thoughts and had to see you smile

I suffer alone in emptiness

I lust to see you swallowed by the mess that you left in your wake

Disgust lies deep within your empty gaze...

My envy cant describe how I loathe you for having all the stars

Leaving my eyes to marvel the sky knowing it should be mine

Yet, its you I see wasting the dream that only I deserve

I'll tear off your face to see your smile.

As you build your dreams on my shattered hopes

I'll look back on a day once loved and fantasize for tragedy

Beg me to make this easier,

And listen as my hopeless cries, send stares into your meaningless eyes

Sighs

2008-06-17T21:07:00.007+08:00

I was shocked to see this post on charis' blog and here it goes:

About today, and... well.. Your current decision which YOU made.
Well, i don't mind you getting a new boyfriend and such. Well, i may not know alot of "inner" deeper events in your past relationship. BUT, as a by stander, i think you shouldn't choose this decision which you chose now.

;I mean.... I know that you said he treat you badly, HOW BADLY?
Is it because he don't have time for you? You must understand, we are in different school, and our school work differently from his. He must have loads of project and such. NOT TO MENTION, he has all this gigs to attend to. He will DEFINATELY be tired right? You can't blame him for being tired now can you, is that treating you badly? He has his own reasons for doing so, why can't you see that?

About this new bf which you made, well, i can't go against you guys getting together. But i AM allowed to express what i think right?
I know its wrong for friends to say bad things about your bf before you even saying it. (its a girl thing)
But, i must say, he is definately a bad choice. Did you even know he somehow flirt with me and michelle before? Just that we gave him the cold shoulder and then he backed off and stop harrassing us?
I THINK you can get a better guy. I mean, he's not even handsome luh. =__="

For today's training, i can't believe you skipped, again. FOR?? REASON?? NO REASON!

WHICH, made me REALLY PISSED!

What's your commitment now? not work, what, BOYFRIEND??
I mean, if he is understanding, he would want you to go. But, wait, HE DIDN'T.
To think, he is also in the same IG?

I persuaded you to go, NO~~

you said, "He go, i also go lo"

WHAT THE HELL! You know yourself very well that he is a slacker and don't even attends. HARDLY. =___="

Might as well QUIT. No reason to defend yourself right?
Since you joined this IG, you yourself know it very well what to expect and you are telling me this SHIT?

GO TO HELL.

Think properly before doing anything.

I don't mind you being angry with me. Say i'm jealous that you have a boyfriend, i don't have, i don't care, because i'm not jealous.

Seriously, you know what i really think? I think either you are blind to see whatever goodness he has and he is a freaking despo or vice versa.

Please reflect, if not, leave it be, i don't care.(its because i care, thats why i'm saying this)
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erm okay so back to me, i didn't know that even her friends are not really happy with her current decisions. i know charis care and this is her way to show her careness and to stand up for what is right and fairness.

seriously, i heard alot that he's a flirt and even wanted to flirt with charis and michelle? WTH are you thinking when you choose him over me?

WAKE UP!
he might just be using you and his love isnt as pure as mine and everything i gave.

=(

my cries

2008-06-16T17:32:00.004+08:00

im lonely..

i miss you so much..

i miss waking up to see your good morning message,

and hearing you say good night to me before i sleep.

you're my first true love,

and i bet there's no other.

why do you have to leave me?

i cried for you everytime i think about the memories we once had.

ups and downs that we gone through for almost 3 years.

why do i have to lose you to some loser who doesnt even have a name for himself?

i know he's rich and can provide you with everything i couldn't but thats not the point.

love knows no boundaries.

i have loved you from the start and i wont stop.

if i were to be given one more chance, i promise to make it right.

i swear i will.

i'll be there for you no matter what

please, baby. i need you the most.

i know you might not be reading this, but still i'm hoping you would be in my arms again

all the sweet things he said to you when he pulls you near is all mine

they're my words that i've been telling you all these while

to see you in his arms breaks my heart like a shattered glass

to see his lips touching yours breaks it even more

why must things turn out this way?

im still loving you

i swear i am and will always do

always, baby

2008-06-13T00:14:00.001+08:00

There's hope beyond the pain

2008-06-12T20:17:00.003+08:00

no ILYs today
i bet its just free XOs that you gave me
sighs

you've changed..

am i still in your heart?
sighs

=(

dear love

2008-06-12T02:21:00.000+08:00

this song really reflects how i feel right now.

i love you, ladyluck

2008-06-05T20:55:00.000+08:00

acc tadpole team training today to prepare for our coming competition.
and gosh, ladyluck was with me today!
haha. three cheers for you =)

i think i played at my top most performance today,
scored goals like nobody's business,
and manage to get my mission accomplished =)

damn happy, freaking tired.

haha.

also, acc have our own blog!
just created and its lively!
check it out at my links area

gonna rest. nights